(24/12/08-1506) today is christmas eve..first of all..i would lik wish happy birthday to my buddy Johnny Lee..tonite we gonna have a celebration for him..but i was wondering should i go or not??im worried about as if i go i shall spoil their mood..coz recently i was so upset of my working stuffz..no mood at all to play around..even ytd my company have a christmas celebration but im trying to squeeze out mysef..soli mates..i really have no intention to play..haiz..day by day..worst to worst..i was wondering wat would happened even worst then..=.=..
last nite..i'd walking off from my place to have some drinkz..1 table+1 chair+1 bottle+1 glass+1 person..im so emo..it wasn't my practice..i jz wanna have some rest..at last..i think i got a good slept..
this morning i was invited by john again..i think i have no choice to reject again..so..i must not disappoint him..tonite is da nite..da big day..wish u all da best dude..

(22/12/08-1456) hmmp..last two days went back to mlk..mmm..quite enjoying..ate a lotz..+.+..siao liao..oh ya..i've succed to reduce my weight..haha..so happy..im keep diet-ing since about 2 months ago..n..it's reduced 4kg(weight) n 2cm(waist)..woohoo..haha..but it's suffering..some ppl treat as wack effortz..but it's work..yeah..
cut a new hair..hope will start a new life..

to be continue...

(18/12/08-1509) haiz..my bad days haven past yet..cham..everything still not goes nicely..haiz..make everyone still angry of me..coz made them get scolded oso..cham..im not purposely de..really..honestly from my bottom of heart..frankly speaking..im having bad luck right now..even small matter which is not good de oso related to me..haiz..cant fall asleep again last nite..how??how??how??anybody can help me??nope..i have to safe mysef..cham..pls..no more nitemare..

yeah..tmr nite goin bac to mlk d..so nice..hehe..coz got event..my lovely-housemate ms.tracy invited us to visit her house for "open house'..happy with tat..i can run away from here and not to get involved in any related to my workz..yalar..i noe is temporary..but at least i can take a rest..correct??miss my hometown so much..xpecially da foodz..yeah..opps..im on diet..wakakka...

(17/12/08-1849) shit..shit..shit..rubbish..this few days was.."SHIT"..i donno how to describe my situation..jz lik shit..im not having good days recently..xpecially this two days..keep scolded by superior..im absolutely "gone"..totally knock out..haiz..so sien..i cant holding anymore..pls..pls..pls let me fine..set me free..:(
im so sorry to those thoubles u..i have no intention to make so many inconveniences on u guys..so sorry..haiz..i noe say sorry doesnt make sense..wat to do..im frustrated on mysef oso..
i lost my way..i lost my direction..i dowan lost u all..pls..pls.bless me..hope tmr will be a great day approach me..pls..
thanks......

(14/12/08-2220) jz got a called from my manager..soli for saying tat..it's so rude to me..i don lik da way u r talking to me jz now..it's hated..totally spoiled my mood..damn it..pls don do it to me anymore..ggrrhh..it is so irritating..donno how to describe..perhaps u donno tat feeling..fuck..
im so so so angry..but i noe i wont telling anyone..coz i don wish to hurt anyone lik wat u din realise to others..ok..my mood is getting better now..anyway..i treat u as my fren..as my buddy..so don speak to me so rude and impatiently anymore..bear in mind..

(13/12/08-1635) hmmp..da days for this week jz lik da wheather..evythg changed in a sudden..i cant even hold for it..anyway..hope it would disappear soon..
ya..in this week..i did some careless mistake which i oso cannot forgive mysef..about my workz..some practical mistakes..i keep trying to do all my stufzz fine n well so far..so i quite careful in working out every matter..i try to get evythg done up prefectly..so in my dictionary..no this word "careless"..but..it does happened last few days..im so disappointed..i shouldnt work out such worst thingz..haiz..soli for not telling in details here coz it quite long story..hard to explain..
i do hope tat i could take it as a lesson..so nv ever for this anymore..

(8/12/08-1545) last sat went to sing k with john at city square..ya..2 of us only..lol..ntg to do ma..so we 2 mar go pat-toh lo..haha..from 7pm till 11smtg..both of us sing till "forget oursef" n "break voice"..haa..then john sang 1 song which i quite familiar de..tat song is my ex-lovely-roomie(mr.stephen) ever favourite emo song..lol..but i think he still being emo now..opps..jk la..how dare am i..this is da song..

(3/12/08-1051) hmmp..im in imm showroom now..coz my colleague take mc so i have to rush here in da early morning..last9..not really..is recently..i cant even fall asleep in da midnite..last9 is da worst..lying on my bed stay awake almost 2 hours..gonna ki siao soon..i have no ideas about this..i don think is coz stressful or any pressure from my workz..jz donno why..haiz..aint think too much..
jz got a called from admin's colleague..i've been told tat i'd given wrong info to them to proceeding my order..haiz..ya..i admit it's my mistaken..cham..1st order from tat contractor..evan,evan..pls help me..

To whom he may concern..donno why will write these..jz treat as helping handz..realised tat even u putting a lotz of effort on "smtg" tat u mind but it doesnt comes wat u wished..sometime da resultz doesnt workz immediately..patient is success..since u have decided in this "journey" then u should noe u might meet smtg not ur desirez..thr r many ways still can work out..i noe u arent impatient person..don giving up in ur effortz.."blinding ignorance does mislead us"..it's right..u shouldnt sitting at thr n keep thinking why everything comes imperfectly..yet..u should think more alternatives to work out ur pride's..correct??God never said tat everything will come easily but he jz promised tat everything will worth it..keep goin dude..

(1/12/08-1702) oh well..i having lucky days recently..get a lotz of orderz..quite excited..but have many workz to do next..ffuuu..i think i will very bz in coming days..everythingz keep appearing in my mind..even when i slp oso dream of them..walao..it seems lik when i having final exam during uni life le..tiring..stress..but..many sales doesnt mean it wont get troublez..coz it needz many ppl to deal with it..so..in da progress..i might meet some barriez which i feel very irritating..haiz..i noe i cannot ensure tat everybody have a good temper..so wat i can do is..jz control..control..i nearly quarrel with my colleague jz now..luckily..it doesnt happened..otherwise..i cant imagine wat will gonna happen then..

continue my workz..